For a while now, I started feeling my dreams are so real... I meet a person that makes me feel safe and warm and I wake up feeling, I just want to spend my life in there and it feels so real to me, but to get reminded I'm in this reality and this reality is my life.
Movies/tv shows do depict the society and what has happened around the world. I can't remember what series I saw this on, but I remember an old woman who kept going in to her dreams/coma and she had her life in there, happy and fulfilled, and when she woke up, she chose and ask her doctors to allow her to continue sleeping forever. The episode ended with her given I believe euthanasia and she return back to her life in the dream.
I'm not so fortunate. My dreams comes once in a while. Its the 2nd time I had it in the last 6 months. But I know its probably just a dream. A fiction that my mind made up for me to fill fulfilled, safe, and warmth that I might feel I don't get in this reality.
Who knows, maybe the root started with my family. I woke up having this idea in my head today. Maybe when I get so sick and tired of the situation, I will just give them an ultimatum and just choose the easy way out. To just tell them, you married the wife you chose and; you chose the husband you married, so just go away and sort out your own issues, if not, I won't return to SG. Very tempting. To just run away. To not face "family". Its the easy way 'cos I've never felt the connection with my "family". They are just parents I didn't chose for, and I'm just the kid they can't choose. After meeting Cindy in high school, I started striving to build close family ties. Cindy gave me the inspiration. I took on the challenge, but now, a certain part of me want to just let it be. Call me unfilial, heartless, whatever, that is how i grew up (no excuse, but seriously, whatever). I love my Mom and I love my Dad, but if you ask me if I have a family, I won't know what to say. Actually, I do, I will say no. And no, I'm not being ungrateful. I'm grateful for all the material needs that they have provided. But that doesn't mean its a family. I have a Mom and I have a Dad. They both love me very much. But I can't call it the family that people call theirs. I guess they support me in the only way they know. But I feel like their pawn. Each wants me on their side. And I am, but that doesn't mean I don't see the wrongs on both side either. Yes, I get food supplied for me, I get money given, yeah, I even got an extended expensive life changing education. What more can a kid ask for yeah? I just want them to work out their own issues and not involve me anymore. Aunts and uncles always preach, its the adults problem its between them. Then keep it that way. Even thou I understand that its NEVER the adults problem and its NEVER between them, 'cos its FAMILY. Kids are part of the so call "FAMILY". Don't just involve them and then, don't involve them, and confuse the part they are suppose to play in the "Family". And, supporting them in their education, money, food, and the fact you gave birth to them, doesn't mean they are in debt to you, or, they "belong" to you!
So, yes, I do wake up feeling like I want to stay in my dreams forever. I do wake up a little disappointed that I'm back in reality. That on top of the "family" issue that I'm still facing, I've chosen to be in a weird r/s situation before that possibly have scarred me on top of the family situation, that I did not went for a fashion design career path. And no, I do not blame it on my Dad to not know how to support me in my passion. All he wants is for me to do something in my career where the money is, so he doesn't have to worry 'bout me not surviving after he left. And, I've allowed myself to take all these path. But I'm starting to feel empty in a certain part of me. Yes, I'm still trying to seek, and work out so I have the balance. And no, don't tell me no one can have everything. I will still try to keep my head up and strive for what I can get till I'm burn out, and then, admit defeat. I'm feeling really close to that but, no, I guess I still have a strong mind, or my dreams or maybe its my will that is still keeping me going (god's gift to me - my will-willfulness comes with it too). I have not reach the point of burnt out yet. That is a positive note in all these.
Maybe when I'm burnt out, I just hope that I may be allowed to stay in my dreams, with the person who makes me happy, safe and warm.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Birthday 2007
This year, I had the exact birthday I wanted. I went away and did something different. I went to tulip farm. The "Turkish Theme" Weekend happens to fall on the exact day of m b'day so we went up to Mt Dandenongs region.
I also had so many lovely presents from so many people who put soooo much thoughts into the gifts. And Ching Ee even cooked Chicken kapitan and lady's fingers (yum yum!) for dinner one day and brought it over to my place. I feel soooo loved.
Enjoy the pictures with me of the moments I spent and the pressies I received.
The 1st cake I received, from Rich at 12 midnight - lemon tart!
1st pressie I received - from Rich
I got my bag (cindy's present to me for my b'day this yr, wallet and all stolen in July/August, since then, I've been looking for a wallet that is me, and this is sooo me!
At the tulip farm, I received this nicely wrapped present from Grace (Melb) and cousin bought me the picture in the background that was customise and made by this old man who has a stall at one of the Turkish Theme stores.
Its Grace's handmade buns! - Bao bao.
Some photos at the tulip farm - gorgeous flowers... enjoyed with Cousin, Cindy, Joel, Grace (melb), Quen, and Angela
Grace even brought company! One from her many collections.
There is a forbidden mansion at the end of the farm. So we just took photos of it from the "fence" - barb wires is more like it.
There were horse carriage rides too... but we forgot to take a ride as we were busy taking photos of flowers and eating the good food there. =p
shades of pink
Purely White
My favorite precious moment! - given by Elena
Karen gave a gorgeous bracelet that I yet to take a photo of.
And Ang, gave me a gorgeous pocket watch necklace - yet to take photo of.
We then had dinner at bistro thiery and had beautiful es cargo, french onion soup, duck, foie gras, and creme brulee.
Few nights later, Alex brought me to "Three Amigos" and had mexican food. They made beautiful tacos!
Won't have it this yr any other way. *hugs to all*
I also had so many lovely presents from so many people who put soooo much thoughts into the gifts. And Ching Ee even cooked Chicken kapitan and lady's fingers (yum yum!) for dinner one day and brought it over to my place. I feel soooo loved.
Enjoy the pictures with me of the moments I spent and the pressies I received.
The 1st cake I received, from Rich at 12 midnight - lemon tart!
1st pressie I received - from Rich
I got my bag (cindy's present to me for my b'day this yr, wallet and all stolen in July/August, since then, I've been looking for a wallet that is me, and this is sooo me!
At the tulip farm, I received this nicely wrapped present from Grace (Melb) and cousin bought me the picture in the background that was customise and made by this old man who has a stall at one of the Turkish Theme stores.
Its Grace's handmade buns! - Bao bao.
Some photos at the tulip farm - gorgeous flowers... enjoyed with Cousin, Cindy, Joel, Grace (melb), Quen, and Angela
Grace even brought company! One from her many collections.
There is a forbidden mansion at the end of the farm. So we just took photos of it from the "fence" - barb wires is more like it.
There were horse carriage rides too... but we forgot to take a ride as we were busy taking photos of flowers and eating the good food there. =p
shades of pink
Purely White
My favorite precious moment! - given by Elena
Karen gave a gorgeous bracelet that I yet to take a photo of.
And Ang, gave me a gorgeous pocket watch necklace - yet to take photo of.
We then had dinner at bistro thiery and had beautiful es cargo, french onion soup, duck, foie gras, and creme brulee.
Few nights later, Alex brought me to "Three Amigos" and had mexican food. They made beautiful tacos!
Won't have it this yr any other way. *hugs to all*
1st Halloween "sweets" gving
Today is Happy Halloween Day! So Happy Halloween to everyone. Rich told me today that kids are coming over for lollies and I was excited! Its the closest thing to experiencing Halloween for me. I've always liked the idea that kids dress up and walk around door to door asking for lollies and getting excited. I only see events like this is in the movies or on tv!
When they finally come over our door, they are sooooo cute! and sooooo excited! They ask for lollies but as rich finished all the lollies in the house, he offered them rice cracker biscuit,the "bin bin" brand ones if anyone knows which one i'm talking about. The one with the green scarecrow? nevermind. One boy talked on the top of his voice saying:" I've eaten one of these before!! I've eaten one of these before" and another one went"me! me!" when asked who hasn't received one yet. The tallest girl went like "awww the doggies are sooo cute!", "oh, I like moby" when she saw the doggies in the house and rich told moby to get into the house.
Soooooo Cute! I was sick in bed but saw/heard this from the window/glass doors of the bedroom facing the front door. Rich then told me that some parents played dress up too. Sooo nice. They were really polite and well behaved too!
*beams* little things brighten up my day.
When they finally come over our door, they are sooooo cute! and sooooo excited! They ask for lollies but as rich finished all the lollies in the house, he offered them rice cracker biscuit,the "bin bin" brand ones if anyone knows which one i'm talking about. The one with the green scarecrow? nevermind. One boy talked on the top of his voice saying:" I've eaten one of these before!! I've eaten one of these before" and another one went"me! me!" when asked who hasn't received one yet. The tallest girl went like "awww the doggies are sooo cute!", "oh, I like moby" when she saw the doggies in the house and rich told moby to get into the house.
Soooooo Cute! I was sick in bed but saw/heard this from the window/glass doors of the bedroom facing the front door. Rich then told me that some parents played dress up too. Sooo nice. They were really polite and well behaved too!
*beams* little things brighten up my day.
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Darkness
I don't think as deep as I used to.
I don't speculate as much as I should.
I've lost touch of my deep thoughts and sights.
I'm less passionate.
I contradict & in constant conflict in my mind
But I'm happier.
I'm more sane.
I'm avoiding depression...
Am I in denial?
I don't know?
I don't want to know?
Darkness scares me sometimes...
n no, its not the night i'm talking about.
Its the fragment that I can try to understand a person's dark side or even appreciate the beauty of dark aesthetics that scares me.
I avoid.
For years now, i love white.
The purity of white.
The cleanliness of white.
The positivity I absorb from it,
and the happiness I attain from it.
I miss my muchee, my karrot, my miss El, n my tom tom...
(puts a mental note to give karrot, El, tom a nick close to heart)...
My comfort & my Joy...
I snuggles up to you and curl up like the bambino(means "baby" in italian) you call me.
Come stai? molto bene? I miss you.
I can be as raw and as honest with both of you coz you have prove you don't use it against me and have always holds me close through the years. Hasn't ditch me, open up to me and shared your lifes with me, always made the effort to keep in contact, have always been as honest as a friend can be, n never used me.
*hugs*
I don't speculate as much as I should.
I've lost touch of my deep thoughts and sights.
I'm less passionate.
I contradict & in constant conflict in my mind
But I'm happier.
I'm more sane.
I'm avoiding depression...
Am I in denial?
I don't know?
I don't want to know?
Darkness scares me sometimes...
n no, its not the night i'm talking about.
Its the fragment that I can try to understand a person's dark side or even appreciate the beauty of dark aesthetics that scares me.
I avoid.
For years now, i love white.
The purity of white.
The cleanliness of white.
The positivity I absorb from it,
and the happiness I attain from it.
I miss my muchee, my karrot, my miss El, n my tom tom...
(puts a mental note to give karrot, El, tom a nick close to heart)...
My comfort & my Joy...
I snuggles up to you and curl up like the bambino(means "baby" in italian) you call me.
Come stai? molto bene? I miss you.
I can be as raw and as honest with both of you coz you have prove you don't use it against me and have always holds me close through the years. Hasn't ditch me, open up to me and shared your lifes with me, always made the effort to keep in contact, have always been as honest as a friend can be, n never used me.
*hugs*
Day at Bulla
I know its been ONE month... and i still haven't updated my blog... with the snow photos... well, technically the snow quantity was pathetic... a bit disappointed but its a good way to go and spend a bo liao day walking in snow and taboggan and not ski nor board. Which! Next year, I'm seriously planning a trip either to NZ or another mountain in VIC to Ski and board! Will take 1 week annual to go up to the snow! Ideally in July coz there will be more snow then end Aug! Ok... so here are some photos... and there are more photos on facebook... the album function on facebook is great and I can set the security settings to limit who gets to see the photos...
woke up at 5.30am... just to get to boxhill at 7am to meet the coach.
can't keep eyes open (>-<)
some kind soul came over and help us take a group photo. So this is all of us.
no taboggan allow except on the taboggan slopes. But guess what, the taboggan slope on the mountain is close coz the snow fell on the other side of the mountain this year! And the only other taboggan slope available is at the entrance of bulla... boring...
here is a photo of me in taboggan action illegally on the slope.
look how pathetic the snow is... all melting the day we went up...
So we decided to take more photos of ourselves...
And we decided to go exploring and walking...
and walking...
and walking!
until we decided to take the mini shuttle bus up to where the actions are! but!! no gear... so, just watch...
after more exploring, walking, and taking a few more shuttly bus rides to different parts of the mountain, we decided to have lunch... and mind you after lunch we did more walking before we decided to head back down to the entrance for some taboggan action.
richard n joel both had this...
cindy had this...
and i had this!
And we finish the day at this taboggan slope which is the ice/snow is ALSO melting and after a few times and reaching the bottom of the slope with splashes of water coming at you, we stop for tea/coffee and return to the coach...
Went back to boxhill, had a buffet steamboat dinner, went home tired & contented we did something different on a weekend.
Once I get photos of my birthday weekend at tulip farm, i will post that up too. So tune in guys. Whoever visits my site.
woke up at 5.30am... just to get to boxhill at 7am to meet the coach.
can't keep eyes open (>-<)
some kind soul came over and help us take a group photo. So this is all of us.
no taboggan allow except on the taboggan slopes. But guess what, the taboggan slope on the mountain is close coz the snow fell on the other side of the mountain this year! And the only other taboggan slope available is at the entrance of bulla... boring...
here is a photo of me in taboggan action illegally on the slope.
look how pathetic the snow is... all melting the day we went up...
So we decided to take more photos of ourselves...
And we decided to go exploring and walking...
and walking...
and walking!
until we decided to take the mini shuttle bus up to where the actions are! but!! no gear... so, just watch...
after more exploring, walking, and taking a few more shuttly bus rides to different parts of the mountain, we decided to have lunch... and mind you after lunch we did more walking before we decided to head back down to the entrance for some taboggan action.
richard n joel both had this...
cindy had this...
and i had this!
And we finish the day at this taboggan slope which is the ice/snow is ALSO melting and after a few times and reaching the bottom of the slope with splashes of water coming at you, we stop for tea/coffee and return to the coach...
Went back to boxhill, had a buffet steamboat dinner, went home tired & contented we did something different on a weekend.
Once I get photos of my birthday weekend at tulip farm, i will post that up too. So tune in guys. Whoever visits my site.
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
training, plans, trips, & my car to be! (+ pics!)
As much as I have my insecurities with my new job, like, I feel I'm not contributing enough etc. I do however enjoying the type of work I get to do. Understanding all 5 businesses within the Home Comfort Group. Learning practical supply chain concepts & process... Business operations... Feasibility analysis to come... I am invited to management dinners and meetings to learn! A flood of knowledge! I'm starting to dig up and apply uni work and notes to apply to my current work... I was lucky enough to go on a 4 days Proj Mgmt Cert IV training too!(2 days this week n 2 days next) Of coz, I will need to get assess before I get the Cert. Like, show prove of project work involvement throughout the project life cycle... I'm also finally getting AS400 queries training! Had Cognos (Cubes) Powerplay basic training... will be getting Ooptimiza basic training in sept... wow... I feel really good not stopping the information tsunami coming my way! Next step is to divert all these knowledge into practical use at work... I hope I live up to the standards!
In the mist of all these training and learning, I'm doing a low budget day trip to the snow this year this weekend! No fancy ski equipment or snow boards... just a fun day in the snow... Haven't been since 2000... time to see the snow again! Plus, it was a good season this year. Cold and lotsa snow.
This is just a planning stage and I really dont want to jinx it... coz i would really want the trip to succeed... but of coz i will need to walk in n out of a few agencies, do my homework before I just do it! Just go ahead and purchase a ticket to london! hopefully a cheap ticket to transit singapore for 2 weeks. In between london, do a trip to france, viist the louve and do the da vinci tour... and then in between singapore, head up to KL for 3 days. That is the plan... and will head to Hk for another trip in 2009...
Last update for the night! OVer the weekend, I paid a deposit for another CAR! Although not in my fav colour, but I reckon it looks pretty good in black, pretty stylish, pretty cool, and pretty funky... nice rims, nice recaro seats!!, nice GTi!!! and yes, I managed to get a VW Golf GTi within my budget with really impressive customer service from AUDI Centre brighton! After 2 weeks of horrible dealer service, this is like tip top! Agreed to all my terms, even the finance guy hired by the place was willing to match the interest rate I had in mind! Unfortunately, they wont get getting their commission from me taking up the finance as Dad will be earning the interest and the good AUD to SGD exchange rates! hehehe... wanna see my car-to-be?
In stylo angle pose
The Car with sunroof!
Wooo... Dashboard
Recaro Seats front and back!
In the mist of all these training and learning, I'm doing a low budget day trip to the snow this year this weekend! No fancy ski equipment or snow boards... just a fun day in the snow... Haven't been since 2000... time to see the snow again! Plus, it was a good season this year. Cold and lotsa snow.
This is just a planning stage and I really dont want to jinx it... coz i would really want the trip to succeed... but of coz i will need to walk in n out of a few agencies, do my homework before I just do it! Just go ahead and purchase a ticket to london! hopefully a cheap ticket to transit singapore for 2 weeks. In between london, do a trip to france, viist the louve and do the da vinci tour... and then in between singapore, head up to KL for 3 days. That is the plan... and will head to Hk for another trip in 2009...
Last update for the night! OVer the weekend, I paid a deposit for another CAR! Although not in my fav colour, but I reckon it looks pretty good in black, pretty stylish, pretty cool, and pretty funky... nice rims, nice recaro seats!!, nice GTi!!! and yes, I managed to get a VW Golf GTi within my budget with really impressive customer service from AUDI Centre brighton! After 2 weeks of horrible dealer service, this is like tip top! Agreed to all my terms, even the finance guy hired by the place was willing to match the interest rate I had in mind! Unfortunately, they wont get getting their commission from me taking up the finance as Dad will be earning the interest and the good AUD to SGD exchange rates! hehehe... wanna see my car-to-be?
In stylo angle pose
The Car with sunroof!
Wooo... Dashboard
Recaro Seats front and back!
Thursday, August 16, 2007
life aint that bad
Just realise death of a close one is more to grab on to than my bag of life... think positive..... think positive....
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
invisible hands trying to grab on
hhmm... what lesson is it?
some can say old things don't go, new things don't come...
some can say be rid of bad luck when something bad happens to a person...
whatever it may be... i rather it all not happen... coz... whoever the immoral person who stole my bag obviously do not know what it is like to loss a whole lot of things close to heart... and if someone out there, may it be satan or the devil or someone who "curse" me (touchwood, hopefuilly not) or one of the part & parcels that life throw at me... God will take care of me still...
1 nice green Crumpler bag as an early b'day present this yr - given by dear Cindy
1 usb thumb drive for uni work when I was doing my Masters - given by Richie
1 silver i-shuffle, a yearly gift, handed to me when I went back for CNY this year to find out that the uncle who gave it to me have passed on just a week before...
1 orange baleno scarf, my fav., bought when I went to HK in 2000
1 work access card
1 work organiser
1 warranty card for a luggage i recently bought
1 Benefit eye cover
1 Benefit lip gloss in my fav colour
1 starbucks debit card
1 catherine manuel design wallet i bought for myself in a cool indo style print... with all my cards, license, loyalty cards i collected over the last 12 years... name cards...
*ka poof*
Disappeared while I look down to the spot I carefully placed my bag when I sat down for dinner, in a restaurant... looking at the spot where I still saw my bag when we walked off to choose dessert... looking at the sport hoping it would miraculously appear...
*sob sob*
invisible hand from my heart trying to hold on to those memories from things that are lost... holding on to the need of having the original & not the 2nd copy of the replacement... trying to grab my life in that bag...
So NO, it wasn't 'bout the hassle of cancelling credit cards nor key cards nor spending the time going places to get things replaced...
I like my things.
I get attached.
I want the original.
I'm anal and
I'm fussy.
I'm afterall,
a Virgo.
some can say old things don't go, new things don't come...
some can say be rid of bad luck when something bad happens to a person...
whatever it may be... i rather it all not happen... coz... whoever the immoral person who stole my bag obviously do not know what it is like to loss a whole lot of things close to heart... and if someone out there, may it be satan or the devil or someone who "curse" me (touchwood, hopefuilly not) or one of the part & parcels that life throw at me... God will take care of me still...
1 nice green Crumpler bag as an early b'day present this yr - given by dear Cindy
1 usb thumb drive for uni work when I was doing my Masters - given by Richie
1 silver i-shuffle, a yearly gift, handed to me when I went back for CNY this year to find out that the uncle who gave it to me have passed on just a week before...
1 orange baleno scarf, my fav., bought when I went to HK in 2000
1 work access card
1 work organiser
1 warranty card for a luggage i recently bought
1 Benefit eye cover
1 Benefit lip gloss in my fav colour
1 starbucks debit card
1 catherine manuel design wallet i bought for myself in a cool indo style print... with all my cards, license, loyalty cards i collected over the last 12 years... name cards...
*ka poof*
Disappeared while I look down to the spot I carefully placed my bag when I sat down for dinner, in a restaurant... looking at the spot where I still saw my bag when we walked off to choose dessert... looking at the sport hoping it would miraculously appear...
*sob sob*
invisible hand from my heart trying to hold on to those memories from things that are lost... holding on to the need of having the original & not the 2nd copy of the replacement... trying to grab my life in that bag...
So NO, it wasn't 'bout the hassle of cancelling credit cards nor key cards nor spending the time going places to get things replaced...
I like my things.
I get attached.
I want the original.
I'm anal and
I'm fussy.
I'm afterall,
a Virgo.
Friday, August 03, 2007
getting lost in art
I realise, with my love for "nighthawks" 1942 by Edward Hopper, i've never posted it up on my blog... its time i should...
His art is about feeling... there is this feeling he conveys through art, or perhaps its how i feel it... "rooms by the sea" 1955 is another one that makes you feel... feel the breeze... feel the space... feel that you are there in that room...
Recently I also came by Gustav Klimt, particularly "the kiss"... the posture of the 2 people, that angle, the submissive-ness, the colours, the "again" feel of it... its so passionate... then i started searching... and found that "expectation" (the woman on the left of the print) and "the embrace" (the couple on the right) actually makes up "the tree of life" and it all fits in and it makes perfect sense... life. expectations. embracing it all.
So... without further adieu... here they are... enjoy... hope you get lost in all these paintings as I have...
The Kiss
The tree of Life
His art is about feeling... there is this feeling he conveys through art, or perhaps its how i feel it... "rooms by the sea" 1955 is another one that makes you feel... feel the breeze... feel the space... feel that you are there in that room...
Recently I also came by Gustav Klimt, particularly "the kiss"... the posture of the 2 people, that angle, the submissive-ness, the colours, the "again" feel of it... its so passionate... then i started searching... and found that "expectation" (the woman on the left of the print) and "the embrace" (the couple on the right) actually makes up "the tree of life" and it all fits in and it makes perfect sense... life. expectations. embracing it all.
So... without further adieu... here they are... enjoy... hope you get lost in all these paintings as I have...
The Kiss
The tree of Life
Sunday, July 22, 2007
we were going to do great things together!! hahaha...
found out that my car got broken into last night. damn fellas sliced my soft top, jack into the glove compartment and removed my whole player! called police and they could get resources down to dust print the car as there was a murder around the area so all resources went there. end up calling AAMI to get them to sort out with the police:
1.) i can't drive my car to the station, its needs to be tolled, the alarm wont disarm.
2.) police dont come and toll it over
3.) AAMI toll service is sent to Mt waverly secure warehouse, therefore good luck to the police.
after a few to and fro phone calls from AAMI to police and back to me and police to AAMI. the police will sent someone down... guess what... they didn't come till 8.30 this morning. i barely had a wink as I was mentally concious always thinking that my phone will ring. Now that the police has came down, and they cant't dust for print as there are condensation in the morning (damn!), i'm waiting for the toll truck to call me. my phone is stuck with me now and I'm paranoid I will miss the call. wat a day, wat a night.
my car... *sob sob* we could have done great things together... hehe... made it sound so drama...
*current mood = bit of anger, bit of frustration, bit of can't let it down, bit of i dunno what.
1.) i can't drive my car to the station, its needs to be tolled, the alarm wont disarm.
2.) police dont come and toll it over
3.) AAMI toll service is sent to Mt waverly secure warehouse, therefore good luck to the police.
after a few to and fro phone calls from AAMI to police and back to me and police to AAMI. the police will sent someone down... guess what... they didn't come till 8.30 this morning. i barely had a wink as I was mentally concious always thinking that my phone will ring. Now that the police has came down, and they cant't dust for print as there are condensation in the morning (damn!), i'm waiting for the toll truck to call me. my phone is stuck with me now and I'm paranoid I will miss the call. wat a day, wat a night.
my car... *sob sob* we could have done great things together... hehe... made it sound so drama...
*current mood = bit of anger, bit of frustration, bit of can't let it down, bit of i dunno what.
Saturday, July 21, 2007
NEW findings!
1st!
I've got my 1st nephew!!! born on 13th July... kekeke... no one told me till i ask my other cousin today... that much for communication... called up the dad this morning to give him a piece of my mind... saying I expect photos as soon as he uploads them! =p
2nd,
I am some mountain tortoise... apparently there is this really famous danish jewellery designer... and I came across the jewelleries today at the shop call Yen Concept at hawthorn... its gorgeous!
http://www.pilgrim.dk/Womens/en-GB/Home
my fav piece is this one in the photo...
reminishing...
I've got my 1st nephew!!! born on 13th July... kekeke... no one told me till i ask my other cousin today... that much for communication... called up the dad this morning to give him a piece of my mind... saying I expect photos as soon as he uploads them! =p
2nd,
I am some mountain tortoise... apparently there is this really famous danish jewellery designer... and I came across the jewelleries today at the shop call Yen Concept at hawthorn... its gorgeous!
http://www.pilgrim.dk/Womens/en-GB/Home
my fav piece is this one in the photo...
reminishing...
Quick update
1st... I got my Potter book today!! Yay! Can't wait to start reading... I also received my Eragon& Eldest book set on thursday... can't wait to start that after i finish potter... and a short history of almost everything - bill bryon; given by my ex-team leader as a farewell pressie... wooo... so exciting... =D well, at least for me... =p
2nd - I've been in the new role for 2 weeks now. 1st week really missed Holeproof as its so lively there... but i'm getting use to the peace and quiet of the new office (which i'v sent photos via email) for concentration. Of coz the type of work is different... very different... going from one structured process way of doing things to a think up of possibility to understand and do things... but I'm starting to get the hank of it (kinda like the thinking concepts we use in uni to think up solutions for case studies)... and also starting to enjoy it... My manager is really nice so hopefully all is good... Hope I learn much and contribute much back...
God bless all~
Sunday, July 01, 2007
A gloomy day
Thursday, 28th June 2007, I attended my 1st Australian funeral. Totally not a good thing to be talking about or even mentioning. But many things ran through my mind and for Dianne,the mother of a good friend at work - she deserves remembering. She brought up my colleague single-handedly and did a great job. Meghan is one of the nicest girl I've ever met. Although I've never met her mum but I've heard a lot bout her and her dog "monty". Due to the mood of the day, the grief on Megz face, when I saw the photos of Dianne and Monty together, tears filled my eyes too.
The verse/poem read at the funeral was really positive and meaningful.
To Those Whom I Love And Those Who Love Me
- Mary Alice Ramish
When I am gone, release me, let me go -
I have so many things to see and do.
You must not tie yourself to me with tears
Be happy that we had so many years.
I gave you my love, you can only guess
How much you gave me in happiness.
I thank you for the love each have shown,
But now it is time I travelled on alone.
So grieve a while for me, if grieve you must -
Then let your grief be comforted by trust
It is only for a while that we must part
So bless the memories within your heart.
I will not be far away, for life goes on -
So if you need me, call and I will come.
Though you cannot see or touch me, I will be near,
And if you listen with your heart, you will hear,
All of my love around you soft and clear.
Then, when you must come this way alone,
I will greet you with a smile and a
'Welcome home"
Initially, I thought about the details I want for my own funeral... Like I want white christmas lilies, the song "halleluja" to be playing, I want a church funeral... and I started to think beyond myself... I want to bring my granny to places, dinners, etc... I also realise that since I've been in Melb all these years and the fact that I'm only close to the relatives on dad's side , if anything were to happen to mom *touchwood*, I wont know the contact details of mom's side, to inform them what happened. But I also realise, I will cope, if I want something done, I will find means and ways to find/do it...
I've got another task to do on my list other than going to the islands for a couple of days with Elena... I'm going to bring granny out to dinners... and again spend time with mom listening to her little stories... reading her newspaper cuttings for me... I'm glad relationship with mom & dad have been re-builded and strengthen in my case. And there are more cousins I'm in contact with these days... And my friends who have become family will always stay close to heart... Grace, Karen & Elena, if I were to leave before you do, I would want you to be at my funeral unless unforeseen circumstances befalls on you.
The verse/poem read at the funeral was really positive and meaningful.
To Those Whom I Love And Those Who Love Me
- Mary Alice Ramish
When I am gone, release me, let me go -
I have so many things to see and do.
You must not tie yourself to me with tears
Be happy that we had so many years.
I gave you my love, you can only guess
How much you gave me in happiness.
I thank you for the love each have shown,
But now it is time I travelled on alone.
So grieve a while for me, if grieve you must -
Then let your grief be comforted by trust
It is only for a while that we must part
So bless the memories within your heart.
I will not be far away, for life goes on -
So if you need me, call and I will come.
Though you cannot see or touch me, I will be near,
And if you listen with your heart, you will hear,
All of my love around you soft and clear.
Then, when you must come this way alone,
I will greet you with a smile and a
'Welcome home"
Initially, I thought about the details I want for my own funeral... Like I want white christmas lilies, the song "halleluja" to be playing, I want a church funeral... and I started to think beyond myself... I want to bring my granny to places, dinners, etc... I also realise that since I've been in Melb all these years and the fact that I'm only close to the relatives on dad's side , if anything were to happen to mom *touchwood*, I wont know the contact details of mom's side, to inform them what happened. But I also realise, I will cope, if I want something done, I will find means and ways to find/do it...
I've got another task to do on my list other than going to the islands for a couple of days with Elena... I'm going to bring granny out to dinners... and again spend time with mom listening to her little stories... reading her newspaper cuttings for me... I'm glad relationship with mom & dad have been re-builded and strengthen in my case. And there are more cousins I'm in contact with these days... And my friends who have become family will always stay close to heart... Grace, Karen & Elena, if I were to leave before you do, I would want you to be at my funeral unless unforeseen circumstances befalls on you.
Monday, June 25, 2007
Truman Capote - such a talent
It started with the want to watch "breakfast at Tiffany's", my team leader who went on maternity leave talking about the way Capote writes, the way he writes about factual literature... And then I bought the DVD of "breakfast at tiffany's" and realise the literature implications, the reflection of society then, the controversy it must have caused.
Then it took one sick/injured/snuggled into bed moment to open up the compilation of Capote's literatures book that my team leader lent me, and started reading again... And there, I'm hooked... Starting on that book turned me to a Truman Capote fan.
I wont go into the details of Capote... so I will leave it to Wikipedia to be the tour guide... Come on, a little bit of reading is healthy... =)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Truman_Capote
Cicciolina... MMmmMMm...
Yummy... MMmmMMm... Yummo...
I finally understood why Cicciolina is Gracie Muchee's fav restaurant! Many a times Richard and I mean to try out the place. We have been told by various people it serves really good food... But since they allow no bookings and the few times we went and decided not to wait, the service was always good... The waiter is always friendly and apologise for the long waiting time and that its ok if we didn't want to wait, we can try again next time.
So last night, after making almond agar agar layed with fruit salad toss with diced rock melon, honeydew, watermelon, pineapple, pitted grapes & blueberries, topped with glaced cherries. One for Grace who made me barley water when I had flu, and the 2nd for my dear housemate Reubern and his sister who is on holidays... We went to try out Cicciolina again...
It was a Sunday, and it was 8.30pm and we asked the 1st waitress we saw, she said about 20 minutes and we said "YES"... anything beats the "1 hour" answer we always get... So we head to the restaurant's bar and had a drink while waiting. I ordered an amaretto on rocks and Richie had a glass of 2002 reserve red. in less than 20, the same waitress gave us a "boo" and pick us up to our table.
Entree for me is the cod soup with wilted spinach etc... Flavours so full its amazing... Entree for richie is a pink roasted duck... Main for Richie is beef cheeks, taste like the best fine dined stew you can imagine... Main for me is eye fillet layed on top of spinach on top of a cake of fried potatoe mash... But since we open a bottle of red and I been drinking my amaretto, bread as starters, drink all my soup, by the time I had my main, I was too full, so Richie had the priviledge to eat half my Main... hehe...
The food was sooooooooo goooooood... only way to make any of my friends imagine it is by saying:" I finally understood why its Gracie Muchee's Fav restaurant." Well, you will also need to know Gracie Baby to understand the depth of this statement.
Mmmmm... reminiscing...
We sat there! That table in view on the right.
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