In the quiet of the night it comes

What are we doing to improve our situation?
What can we do to improve our situation?

I jump
I scream
I strangle
Inside my head
I crave peace of mind
Maybe not hard enough
Avoidance
Acceptance
And then?

All inside.

Everyone has their own problems.
Everyone repeats the same comforting yet comfortless words
They don't know what to say
It's not their problem
They don't want to cross the "so call" (pathetic) line

Depression shall not conquer me,
I won't allow it.

Perserverence and positivity

It's been a while. Don't want to just write about whiney, negative perspective. We should focus on the more positive perspective so we live a fuller life!! Although not writing is partly due to quite a busy schedule, the truth is I haven't tried enough to walk on positivity.

So, I though I practice two good traits and try to make a habit of it. Perserverence and positivity.

I've been struggling to find love for people who should matter most to me. Who are allowed to cause me so much mental grieve that I have dreams symbolizing what I'm going through consciously at times and subconsciously. After the sleepless nights and the tossing and turning before dozing off, I let my thoughts flow; I let discussions around me or tv scenes, run relations deep into my thoughts. And amazingly I'm reminded of the sweetness those people has shed on me years ago. I focus on those comfort, secure feelings and hopefully, they will outweigh e bitterness thru times. Afterall, time washes away pain. One slowly forgets things. And lets focus on e warmth and hope that e bitterness can be blurred more through time. And everyone can be given the chance to move forward in their lives with a slightly saint mind.

Hope. Hope brings about action. Having hope is already giving meaning to faith.